Currently Reading The Bluest Eye By Toni Morrison, Toni Morrison see related

Yeah so the semester has begun. I have mixed feelings. Part of me is so very excited at the thought of all that awaits me this semester and the other part of me is absolutely terrified. It's an odd mix of emotions that I have become quite familiar with.

So far I am in love with two of my classes: American Women Authors and Poverty and Public Policy. I'm telling you...doin the reading for that 1st class won't even be like homework. Once I saw how interesting the book list was and the teacher started talkin about how our essays will be more like creative writing assignements and less like academic writing, I about fell out from sheer happiness. I'm also really into issues of poverty and race so my soc class will be fun. I like the prof and there are no papers so that's a plus. My other three classes are ok but not worth devoting any of my xanga space to.

I got my refund Thursday and I spent about 3/4 of it in one day. and it wasnt' on fun stuf either. I was buying books, supplies, paying bills....boring adult stuf. I was like dang can i get a trip to the mall at least.

Virtuous Woman is coming out in a couple of weeks. Too excited for words...

Yeah so my goal was to start dressing better this year. As most of you can tell that has yet to come to pass. The thing is you need money to revamp your wardrobe and I always have other stuff that I hafta spend my money on. Therefore, I have been puttin in job applications on campus cuz if I'm workin I can slowly start making changes.  It is time for my increasing internal maturity to be matched by external maturity if that makes any sense.

My suitemates party too hard. They are making too much noise and I'm tryin to sit here and reflect. My thoughts keep being interrupted by screams, loud talkin, slamming doors, and the sound of things (or people) falling to the ground. I need earplugs.

This semester is gonna be crazee....but not crazee bad tho.....it's gonna be crazee good....

It's been over a month. Dang. I didn't realize it was that long. But newayz I'm here now and I promise not to stay gone that long again. 

It is New Year's Eve and I am not going to church. Our service was cancelled this year so I'm ringing in the new year at home. Boo. I'd much rather be at church. It's just something I like about starting the year in God's house ya know.

This semester was a successful. I have finally reached my target GPA and so I set a new goal for myself in that area. I can't stay at one level....gotta keep improving and reaching for more. I am not one who is easily satisfied. A goal reached means that a more lofty goal needs to be set.  

This break has been simply amazing. Time with the fam. Delectable food. Got to chill wit some old friendz. Had a surprise visit from some folks I hadn't seen in awhile. It was fun to reminisce. Read a coupla good books. Did some grad skool research. Looked at some internship opportunities in Africa. Worked at B&R for 3 days and then decided I couldn't take it anymore so I kinda quit indefinitely. Had some surprise run-ins in random places with ppl from hi skool. Watched a lotta good movies. Slept till 11:30 almost everyday. Sweet bliss!

One week left and I intend to make the most of it.

I hafta preach/give a lesson tomorrow on prayer. Send up one for me ya'll...I need it. It'll be fun tho. I'm excited.   

I have goals for 2006 just like everybody else, but I'm too lazy to list them here. To sum it all up let's just say that my prayer is for God to make me a better Lakeisha than I was in 2005. Better spiritually. Better emotionally. Better physically. Better mentally. I refuse to stay the same.

Oh yeah one more thing. My parents got DirectTV and now I am hooked on Moesha reruns. They come on Noggin and WGN. I luv that show. I forgot how good it was. It's even better the second time around. Mo to the E to the Moesha....haha!

Currently Reading Frankenstein: Or the Modern Prometheus (Penguin Classics) By Mary Wollstonecraft Shelley, Maurice Hindle see related

1. I feel like I am about to go insane becuz I am so ready to go home. I will be gone in like two hours but the wait is driving me crazee. I wanna see my family. I wanna eat my mama's cookin and I wanna lay around on my couch like a big fat bum.

2. Three papers due the week we get back but I refuse to stress. God'll bring me thru just like He always does. I'm actually xcited about  writing them because they are on books and poems I actually enjoy. I am such an English nerd.

3. My daddy invited me to be one of the speakers for the prayer seminar they have at my home church every January. I accpeted. I am skared outta my mind, but I still accepted.

4. I'ma get 2gether wit some friendz from hi skool when I get home. Fun times.

5. This entry is boring but I can't stop.

6. I cry like twice a week when I watch Oprah. It's getting a bit ridiculous. Today I cried becaue this lady who had breast cancer made about 100 videotapes over the course of a few years where she taped herself dispensing 18 yrs of advice for her young daughter.
She knew she was gonna die and she wanted to still be a part of her daughter's life. She died when her daughter was six. I was bawling.

7. I have a really good idea for Christmas presents that won't cost any money, but will require a whole lotta time. I hope I can pull it off...

8. God hit me over the head with the fact that I need a mentor...a slightly older Christian woman who will invest in me and who I can open up to about what is going on in my life.So far I dont' know who that someone will be but I'm praying that He will send that someone my way real soon.

9. I think about marraige and kids more than I used to. I think about what a good wife is and how I am so far from that. I think about how there is some major work to be done before I am anybody's girlfriend and esp before I am anybody's wife. One thing I learned about this whole guy/girl thing is that we as women have the tendency to make these lists about all the things we want in a guy. "O God send me someone who is faithful and kind and loving and funny and selfless and strong and romantic and fine of course." But I heard someone once say that before we can expect to get somebody that has all those qualities we want so despereately we have to develop those very same qualities within ourselves. How can we expect someone who is selfless if we ourselves are not? How can we long for a kind and loving man if we dont' know how to be kind and loving to him? And so that has stuck with me to this day. And instead of always thinking about what I want in a husband whenver he comes along, I think about what my husband will want in me and I ask God to help me become that.

10. My mama just called me. I'm out.

Ok so I wuz gonna recount my entire week play by play but I'm not in the mood to do that much typing so just know that it consisted of many answered prayers, time spent with some wonderful people, three nights of Bible studee, and God showing Himself over and over again. Woop woop.

This was the first Saturday in a looooong time that I haven't been productive. I feel kinda bad but there is no way I could do work now. I am wore out. So whatever.